Hate.

Falling snow is one of the most beautiful things in the world,
but everything is always more beautiful in your mind.

Stupid, stupid, stupid expectations, idealism, desire.
Buddha and Nietzsche turn in their graves.

1. A hate (singular, n.): a wrinkled bundle of self-loathing,
like a prune,
only the wrinkles are finer, sharper,
the color like Amerindian leather,
the smell like putrid, sour, acrid,

Ex: I hit the glass on the cabinet today, out of hate.
Stupid, stupid, stupid.

Summer makes laziness.

3... 2... 1...
SEX PISTOLS!!!!!!!!!!!,
"F the Press, Michael's the best!",
Whattotalkabout?

God answers prayers.
I'm friends with the girl in my art class,
the girl I liked likes me back,
the girl who was upset with me is talking to me again,
and something amazing really did happen: Taiwan...

I'm not so sure what I should do now. Should I try talking to God again? Nothing amazing ever happens when I do, anyway. Maybe I'm expecting too much.

Blablablabla.

I've been dreaming about school and tests and that girl in art for four days straight now,
and this boredom is killing me and my writing abilities....
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I wish I could miss people and why can't I ever miss anyone and why don't I ever feel bad for people getting killed on TV? and trying to like someone can be so hard sometimes! and I'm selfish...........................................
The-heat-fries-your-brain-like-a-fried-banananananana...........

"A denial, a denial, a denial, a denial, a denial, a denial, a denial, a denial, a denial."

It's like problem solving for Type 4.

Shots, an apology, and a haircut.

Yin and yang:

I got my shots today, and it wasn't bad at all.
In the moments leading up to it, I noticed that the wallpaper had something on it about friends,
but I ended up closing my eyes for the duration of the shots.
Then we had to poo in buckets.

Someone really awesome apologized today for something hurtful a chillion years ago.
It's really odd, her bringing up the past and all.
I guess I'm happy, but...
Don't do guilt!
Live for the moment!

I need a haircut.

Murphy's Law

So the hydrangeas survived after all!
My mom was quite happy.
Meanwhile, those baby tomatoes are dropping left and right...

God, have mercy!
This is abortion of tomatoes!

Oh, but why the hate, minori?

Jasper and Alice!

My favorite couple in the series! Yay!
My family doesn't seem to like the dried hydrangeas I picked from outside, and I'm listening to Black Holes and Revelations.

Bible study

I came late, and they had gone to TGI Friday's for dinner.
I chased the fireflies and watched swallows over the lake for an hour before they came.

We only had 15 minutes left by the time we started, and there were only five of us, but we had a lot of fun.

On the way home, the guy told me I had a good heart, and it made me happy.
And I thought, "God's children are quite nice, after all."
I don't think I've ever thought so well of God in a while.

Perhaps I'm looking forward to meeting next Tuesday.