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(enfp, future peripatetic and/or cat owner)

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Burning Incense to the Big Empty

In the small groups, the guys are asking us what we worship. They'd like to think most people in the world worship themselves. I don't think it's true.

I love myself, and I think I'm quite amazing, but I rarely give a damn if it doesn't go my way. The whole world kind of just happens, see? Not a whole lot I can do to change stuff.

I like my girlfriend. Some guy likes her. I think it's pretty cool. I think it would be interesting if she started liking him. I'm not one to get jealous, anyway. There was that girl back in 7th grade--I found out she liked some guy who looked cool. I was pretty happy for her.

And interesting ideas, perhaps I worship those. Saving my ideas on blog or paper or wherever. I care a bit about that. I care when my friend ignores my ideas--I care enough to stop hanging out with him for that.

And maybe I like other things. Like I cry sometimes, when my mom talks to me on the phone, and she thinks it's because I miss her. But maybe not. Sometimes you just want to cry for no reason at all, you know?

I have a justification for the guys in Rise and Fall and why they keep sticks of incense in their mouths now:
An absurdist, self-worshipping culture. The neo-Dada.

2 comments:

  1. I wouldn't...
    not that interesting :p

    how does ice cream at 11 p.m. sound to you?
    i can't sleep.

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  2. darn, i should have stayed on gmail for a bit longer. you still on? i think it's brilliant. eat it next to a window.

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