Existentialism!

I was at Wal-Mart, I think, and these people, they were all gathered in the room around these screens, and it was showing Spirited Away that day. It was near the end, and I could probably have recited everything they said in time with them. The store was really boring, though, and it had nothing except Star Wars toys, and so, "the movie it was!"

It was at the part where she walked down the side of the building and into the water below to wait for the train. It had been a few years, I think, since she first made the deal with the tall lady, and she thought maybe she could leave now. And there were these stairs, and she walked down, and the sun was all there was in the sky that day, shining amazingly bright and white and empty existentialism.

(And behind her, Haku and the lady stepped down, watched her from a distance.)

The sun was the only thing in the sky, bleak, existential emptiness, and it cut through everything, past the trees here, and the trees by the stairs, and made a million shadows everywhere...
And there was this house to her left, exactly as she had left it, the sun pushing through like an Edward Hopper. On the right was the house with the boat.

It was really cold, so she sighed steam into the air.

She felt like she had this, this thing, this feeling of…
She wasn’t quite sure what it was—
She wasn’t so upset at it all, but it wasn’t great. And she thought it would be great, would be amazing!, dreams!, eternity!, something worth all these years of wasn’t-greatness…

But then it started to rain a bit. And she realized it was quite cold here, anyhow, and she was very tired and a bit hungry,
And she wanted to go somewhere nice, To eat a lunch over this rain…

As she thought this, she teared up a bit.

Still not sad, she thought, but it was all very lame…

Haku and a lady stepped out now, and he was horribly upset now, at the lady, for promising all this stupid stuff, and it was all so unfulfilling!, absurd!, and now...

And then it started to rain harder.

And the boy screamed to the lady twas all really stupid, pointless!, and he begged her to let the girl, Chihiro, he wanted her to stay, please!
But The rain was getting harder, she said, and they would all get quite wet if they didn't run back now. And she was a wolf, and she ran back. The boy glanced back at the infinity sky, all drenched and heavy, and the girl, and she was crying, but still he ran for the building.

And then it was pouring like the infinity-sky over the parking lot.

And then it was morning, and then it was my alarm