My parents, I wish they could go to hell sometimes.
Die.
In a marriage, we call the guys who want respect all the time an ASSHOLE.
In a family, this is something we attribute to the MODEL CHILD.
What the hell?
I don't even give a flying fuck about whether I treat you as my superior, because that's exactly what you're not...
I guess it's because I'm still growing and all. I think I'm killing myself here, rebelling. They can't stand by and let the drowning guy alone in the pool... I understand. I know I'm the one who's wrong...
But right now, I don't NEED fucking thought police shoving crap up my ass.
Whatever.............................................................................................
Hey... Seal, my pet balloon, is sick today, you know?
He grew mold on the inside, lots. I told him I didn't love him anymore... I was really upset because he grew mold. I think I still love him, though. I just ignore him so much now and, I'm bored of him. Maybe he'll get better and I'll love him again, but I do want to love him now, but it's hard..........
I saw water disappearing on my jeans.
Maybe it's a little like a person you like.
It was so sad, the way it would fade into the blue of my jeans... You could see it getting lighter... Maybe you wanted that color a little longer, the dark-stain of the water. But all too soon, it was gone and you dont' even remember what the color of the water on your jeans looked.
My friend got a nice duck call device yesterday,
so we tried calling some of the ducks in that pond with the long bridge with no benches... There's only one left now. It's quite sad. We called to him, anyway (a "feeding frenzy" call, said the instructions), but I don't think we fooled him too well.
And the blinds yesterday casting sunlight on the carpet was really nice.
I'm feeling kinda empty right now, though.
There's a quiz called the Myers-Briggs... it's floating around the internet these days, anyway...
I used to think I'm an INFP.
I'm an ENFP now, though, and that bothers me. It's changing the way I view myself. Why can't I be an introvert? Am I changing, perhaps? Maybe I'm still an I. I definitely show signs of E-ness... I'm really uncommitted, for one thing.
See, that's part of it.
I was talking about how heavenly it felt to be in love before.
It really does feel that way, you know. The movies don't have that wrong one bit. But it's just a feeling. I can go from liking one person to another in a matter of months... I mean, the first relationship isn't new anymore, or exciting. I really don't want that, though. I really want that first relationship. I still want to like that girl. But it's a burden.
Maybe relationships need work. Perhaps you both gotta say "I won't leave, even if I like someone else, even when the feelings are dead, even when you're not who I thought you were or don't treat me the way I thought you would," I think. That's love, I think. That's where the movies have it wrong. I don't think it's too easy to love.
It reminds me of suicide. They say someone who loves people wouldn't kill themselves. I guess I don't really love people. I mean, does it matter how they feel once you're dead?
Suicide and relationships.................
Maybe I'm more selfish than I'm willing to admit.
Oh, hmmmm....
I downloaded some hentai from the game Little Busters! on Friday, and I think I'm in love with Kud. Kud! Kud! Even the name is cute! >.<
I don't think we should blame people for things out of their control, like...
I don't think being a pedophile is wrong.
I think if they go out to rape little kids, it's wrong, but I don't think desires that you can't control are wrong. I don't think I'd ever rape a kid...
Perhaps I'm not so selfish after all.
I guess I'm just being random.
I listened to 5 hours of music on Lala
yesterday. 4 albums. You should listen to this.
Kiss the Rain
It feels like waiting at a bus stop in the rain on a spring morning and maybe you're thinking of someone you love, and you wish you could keep loving them, even if you know you can't...
How do you post videos on here? I can't seem to post downloaded youtube vids... is it some sort of copyrighty kinda thing?
